Walking in Recovery with Grace, Humility, and Action
Recovery. It is such a fascinating word. It is a word so clearly defined yet recovery is not a defined experience. What does this word really mean? How does it play out in life? How does it play out in and through a situation that so desperately is in need of recovery?
Recovery is, as I like to call it a journey, different for all who embark upon it. Recovery enables you to gain confidence as you grow out of a life threatening disease and addiction. Recovery is not about an individual’s status.
It is a journey of the heart fighting against lies that want nothing more than to destroy the very reason any person exists. Recovery is a choice. Though it is not easy, for those like me who want nothing more than to say: I am living recovered- it is a choice that must be made.
Recovery requires Humility. For me, it was a chance to regain my ability to love and to be loved. It required (and does require) a level of toughness for it is a journey of survival. The addiction is misleading by instilling fear into the person. The key is speaking truth to what lies are being pressed upon you.
It would be wonderful to say that recovery just comes with time and then be able to give an amount of time but I am unable to do so. There is no time frame due to the truth that recovery is not the same for any one person. In recovery you must reject all power that the addiction has on you and shift focus.
Recovery is realizing that you cannot and never will be perfect. There will be moments. I have found it essential to choose to embrace challenge and battle the lies with truth. Moments lessen but they will always appear. It is a choice to not allow the thoughts, feelings, or situations own you. There are times when it seems impossible to fight the moments it is here at these places I have needed to have humility.
There is an assumption that when one is walking in recovery that you must be ok. There is this battle that goes on in the mind that you must make everyone around you happy that you are doing so well. This is the very moment where the addiction rears its ugly head yet again. I found that it was allowing myself to need assistance.
Having been through rehab, I knew what it was like to have people around me to care, love, and push me towards health, healing, and wholeness. Transparency is a necessity. I knew it was key to recovery to surround myself with those whom want nothing more than to create a safe haven for me. It was and is my level of transparency that allows me to accept who I am and who I have been made to be.
Transparency is the opposite of isolation. Transparency with the appropriate people destroyed my ability to isolate. The destruction of isolation is essential to recovery because secrecy along with isolation results in destruction.
Recovery takes action. Instead of being a slave to the demands and expectations you believe others have or others do have, you actively choose to focus on truth. The beauty of this: You are worth more than what you feel or have ever thought. Self-worth is not based on what other individuals say or feel about us. Recovery is challenging, painful, and demanding.
However, the peace of God is constantly flowing over me like a waterfall over the rocks. God is so faithful; He is the God of the Present and the Future. It is because of His grace that I have not and will never be held to past failures but given freedom.
Thinking about the past years reveals to me the beauty of Gods hand in my life particularly. I am no longer under the tight hold that of the Eating disorder. This does not mean my life is perfect but I am free and living life the way the Lord made me to live it, in Him.
I am honored to be able to help people struggling with Eating Disorders today. It blesses me to help others take back their life. Being a recovery consultant soon to be therapist, I have learned and enjoyed helping those struggling with eating disorders in a more professional manner.
I am privileged to walk along side others as they reclaim their life and restore their relationships. I get to encourage others to love and to be loved. I get to welcome others into this freedom I have been living and that is the greatest gift of all.
Article Contributed by Abigail D. Wolff: Recovery Consultant, Remuda Ranch 2009 Alumni, Remuda Ranch Program for Eating Disorders
About the Author: Abigail Wolff is a 22 year old Christian recovery consultant with demonstrated success in the direction, guidance, and management of individuals in need of a life change. She is currently studying at University of the Rockies in Colorado. She is studying to receive her M.A. in Psychology. She is not a licensed professional at this time.
Published Date: June 1, 2012
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